I am so close to the end of REWRITTEN I can taste it. I was in a bit of a funk for a while, so I decided to go back and re-read some of the earlier parts of the book, and I totally fell back in love with my story and my characters. Gah, I love them! Their story deserves to be told! And that’s why I’m back at it, full force! I’ve been writing like a mad woman the last couple of days, and it feels great!
In fact, I just wrote the big, game-changing scene last night, and now I’m just a couple of consequence-scenes away from the end. And I found the perfect song that is inspiring me to write the end: “Dream” by Imagine Dragons. It perfectly encapsulates my characters and the vibe of the end of my book. I’m pretty much going to listen to it on repeat to keep me going. It gives me motivation! Here’s to wrapping up the end of my first book! Cheers!
So I haven’t posted in the last week because it’s been a rough week for me, motivationally speaking. In fact, if you noticed, I didn’t post anything for “Motivational Monday.” I haven’t written in a week. A whole week. That’s the longest I’ve gone in…I don’t know how long. I have been brainstorming a little bit on paper about my next few chapters, but still. I need to write. But I just….
I just am not feeling confident in my writing or my ideas. I’m so close to the end of my first book ever, but I’m having doubts. This is the main reason I stopped writing years ago, and I really don’t want it to deter me from keeping going, but it’s hard.
I think part of the reason is because I still haven’t found a job, and it’s putting a lot of stress on my family. Don’t get me wrong, I am lucky enough to have a husband who is able to provide for us and pay all the bills, but with me not working, we don’t have the the money to really do anything extra, and we certainly don’t have the money to move, which we need to do so my husband can stop commuting so much.
But with that said, the plotting I have been doing on paper is very exciting. I was really concerned that Rewritten (that’s the working title of my WIP) didn’t have enough action, and the new ideas I have is way more action, but I’m just nervous about the execution. I’ve never written anything with a lot of action in it. But I need to just do it.
Tomorrow. I will do it tomorrow. I promise!